Live because when you were born your dad looked at your mom like he had seen the most beautiful thing in the world. Like he had seen a sunrise. Live because I want you to see more sunrises. Live because that Italian restaurant you love is introducing a new risotto and always serves risottos with those awesomely delicious chips.
Do you remember how you wanted to get your hair coloured like a rainbow? Yes, you can do that now. Live because you need to learn those five languages. Live because you have movies to watch and museums to see. You have to know the history and geography of a place. There is so much in this world and because you still don’t know why you deserve this world.
You need to breathe because your dad needs to tell you the dad jokes. Your brother is waiting for you to scream because you ate the last piece of his chocolate. Your sister looks up to you and wishes she were you. Your mother makes the best cake and she knows that you might even burn your hand to gobble them. You need to breathe because your friends have been waiting for a reunion. You still wonder the difference between brownies and muffins. The Coldplay concert you wanted to go to. What if you don’t feel like this anymore. Your wall needs more Polaroid pictures and your closet needs more red dresses. Dear lonely soul, I feel you.
Did you miss yet another train? With all kinds of scattered thoughts that poked your head. Somehow you did not feel like going home?
You felt unknowingly lonely and devastated at the breakfast table,
I feel that too.
I was completely lost when I was returning home from work. I feel like I am trapped by monsters on all sides, I am afraid that there are times when I feel so suffocated inside that the very next thing I want to do is to run away.
Did you want to kill yourself too? Weren’t you afraid of the sugary smiles all around?
I know it happens to you because I feel it too. It happens to everyone. But then, there is nothing to be afraid of. We all die each day. Dying is easy and it is the ultimate sleep. I know, I have learned that through years
Are you scared that you would look ugly if you eat that last piece of pizza? Go get that dress that shows your collar bone. Do not put on makeup if you don’t feel like it, you don’t have to put an extra effort to hide your dark circles. Go finish off that last episode you wanted to watch, or that particular novel that is still kept on your shelf. Go get it.
If you want to sing? Do it! Nobody cares if you have a voice like a toad. To finish off that half – sipped coffee or that half-written letter that is still waiting for you to be filled with words of love and care. Click pictures. Make memories. Because my darling, nobody would judge you today.
It’s okay. If today was a bad day. Tomorrow might be a happy one. You will be stronger and happier than today. You ask me if I sound so confident. Because everything happens for a reason. I believe things that are meant to be will always be there. Carry your heart with you, see how things change. Cry if you want to, loudly, don’t be ashamed of it. Nobody will stop you; send that reckless mail to him which you have still saved in your drafts. My dear, tonight is the day, nobody will stop or judge you for the way you are. Go take your dream job you always wanted to take. Because tonight my dear, nobody will dare to stop you. Tonight, you will be nothing but yourself.
Throw away the lonely and sad. While sitting in the empty coffee shop, seeing other couples, or while taking the bus from work? It doesn’t matter anymore. A part of you dies every day, it will again feel sad and devastated but that won’t stop you from living. And a part of you, lives every day. Lives to the fullest. And yearns for more. You will live with memories, and mostly be yourself. I say this because I have realized now that there is nothing beautiful about swollen eyes and a broken heart. The last time I checked broken pencils can be used for writing again. Live because you are not a Greek tragedy, live because we both know you can, we all can do this. We can be superheroes and this story will not end even after we are gone.
Take a few deep breaths and feel alive. Experience how wondrous life is. Feel the moments. Live the joys. And most of all spread a lot of love.
Written By Taryn Rodrigues
Week 9, March 2021
